Timing.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. A reason that is way bigger than me. Way bigger than my world. When I was little I used to watch the Veggie Tales where they sing "God is bigger than the Boogie Man." I think about that song a lot. I get scared really easily and I hate it. It makes me question myself and my faith, but I know that that is a lie of satan. I am strong. My relationship with Jesus grows daily. I wish it would grow faster, I'm hunger for him. One of the hardest things right now is Dustin. I love him more than anything. I just wish he would accept Jesus. He sure is growing, and that's wonderful. But I want him to be the future leader of our family. I need him to be a man of God. I pray for that constantly. He is one of the nicest people I know. He has such a kind heart. He loves me and Miah and Bubbles more than anything, but I want him to be madly in love with my Jesus. Please pray for him!

So I titled this "Timing" and now I will explain why.

Miah was due on Dec. 29, 2009. This baby is due Sep. 29, 2010. Miah passed away at about 18.4 weeks on Aug. 1st, 2009. This baby will be that exact age on May 1st, 2010. Exactly 9 months after Miah passed away.

I'm not sure if I was ready for this baby, but I know I am now. I was still having a hard time with pregnant ladies, how in the world was I going to be one in the mirror?
I have been given abundant peace by my most powerful God. I am more than blessed.

love you all!
jamie and bubbles