Monday, March 29, 2010

update after appointment

Well I'll start off with last Thursday I had a trip to L&D, my doctor was the doctor on call and I was having really bad cramping and presure on my cervix, so of course I got super worried and scared, but they got me right in for an US and he said that everything was ok, that babies heartbeat was good and my cervix still looked good, so that was such a relief! He said it was probably just my uterus moving up even higher (I'm already super big...not sure how much longer we are keeping it a secret, even tho some people know) Baby actually measured a little over a week bigger than what they thought. It would take the due date back to my orginal one. (They changed it at my 8/10 week US...thought it was 10 weeks, but turned out to be about 8) It made me feel better that little one is bigger rather than smaller) anyways, everything was good. He just told me no bank robbing. =)

So today I had my regular appointment. My mom took me, we heard babies heartbeat with a doppler, it was so wonderful!! 150-153, and heard the baby move a lot. I've felt the baby quite a bit already. =)

Scheduled my cerclage for April 8th. It works out well because my mom has that whole week off for spring break. I will be asleep through the procedure.

Then a follow up apt the following Monday.

My birthday is tomorrow. I'm pretty excited. I'll be 20. We are all going to Essenhaus for dinner. Then cake at home.

Well thanks for reading, and prayers would be wonderful!!!

Thanks so much!

peace, love, and blessings!
-jamie jane

Monday, March 22, 2010

Baby of Hope

Now that I'm showing quite a bit I thought I would write something. I was going to wait until after my surgery, but I thought, as much as I already love this baby, I will enjoy it while I still get to carry it. I know that's a hard way of thinking, but that's how I'm taking it right now. One day at a time. I found out I was pregnant the end of January, o man was it a bad week. I was a rollercoaster every 5 minutes. I still couldn't look at babys without breaking down, how in the world was I going to have one inside of me. How on Earth would God let me get pregnant when there are amazing people out there who want babies so bad who are on fertility treatments and I'm 19 and not married. I questioned God. Then I said to myself. JAMIE YOU IDIOT. Why in the WORLD are you questioning God when he is giving you such a miracle! This baby is the best gift, and you haven't even thanked God yet. Then I was mad at myself. After 9 or so weeks. (from my LMP I should be about 2 weeks ahead of what the baby measured at 8 weeks on an ultrasound) But they were moving and their heart was beating great! My next apt is on the 29. Then I find out when I will be having my surgery. It's a cerclage, a stitch around my cervix, so I don't go into early labor again. So with some bed rest and the stitch I have a 85%-90% chance of my baby living. I would love love love any prayers. And I'm sorry if I have hurt anyone, and I really don't blame any of you if you chose not to talk to me for a while. All of my babyloss friends, I love you guys so very very very much! Words can not explain.

I'm writing this at 1:20 in the morning, so I'm sorry if some parts don't make sense.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Miah's name by the waterfall.

I guess I haven't really updated at all. There isn't much to say. I live my life day by day. Sometimes I feel bad that I'm doing so well. I have a lot of stuff going on, some a lot harder than others. but God is Good.